Writing to myself, replying to the wonderful people that have wrote to me since October and are still without an answer because the main theme and purpose of my existence has been to get better from my back pain.
Heart is still broken but alive, mind is wandering through the urge to go out and take pictures and stay in, face the clutter, deal with the mess.
Unlike many, i do not feel protected by rainy days and shivering cold - i was born in a sunny afternoon and my body aches for light and endless warm days and short nights.
Layers of clothes play a good service to the excuse of hiding myself, but i feel the need to sort out who this Sara person has become when nobody is around.
"We have to keep reinventing ourselves almost every minute because the world can change in an instant, and there's no time for looking back. Sometimes the changes are forced on us, sometimes they happen by accident, and we make the most of them. We have to constantly come up with new ways to fix ourselves. So we change, we adapt, we create new versions of ourselves. We just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last."